Got jeans, a blouse and brown brogues, all for £17! Bargains FTW. Also got Tender Is The Night by F Scott Fitzgerald so excited to start reading that :) They didn’t have The Winter Of Our Discontent which was disappointing but I’m gonna order it online. Woo okay it’s nearly 2AM now and I’m feEling slightly delirious so goodnight guys much love I’M ON A ROLLERCOASTER THAT ONLY GOES UP
Went to Red Hot World Buffet which was amaaaaaaazing. Also went shopping with my bro which was brilliant because… he has a credit card. And a kind heart. ;)
However. From tomorrow I am going to:
and yeah. Not fun but it all needs to be done unfortunately. I’m getting stupid and fat and poor and it’s not good. :( Buuuut hopefully if I follow my plan by the time summer comes I’ll be ready for exams and I’ll be skinny and I’ll have loads of money to spend on amazing clothes/books/perfumes/general things that make girls happyyy
I absolutely love shopping. Managed to get myself a green cardigan from Dorothy Perkins, a purple jacket from Next, a T-shirt from H&M, a bag from New Look and necklace from Claire’s. Don’t judge, they do nice jewellery k. Had a really nice day actually, and managed to get Maths revision done on top of all of that. Only bad thing is that I got about 4 hours of sleep because I was up nearly all night texting… so I had a nap at like 5pm, until 10pm, which is one heck of a nap, it was longer than my actual night’s sleep… and now it’s half 11 and I’m wide awake and the crazy cycle continues. Sigh.
Currently having the most hilarious conversation ever with the lovely Beth, who I have missed terribly. <3 However she won’t tell me what she got me for Christmas even though it’s LATE and ueiruweiruwerwejlk. Do you think I’m getting closer?
Je vais écrire en français, um, juste pour pratiquer je suppose, afin que je puisse (peut-être) m’ameliorer un peu ! Alors corrigez-moi si vous voulez. Enfin aujourd’hui je suis allée faire du shopping. C’était amusant comme toujours et j’ai en fait acheté des choses pour une fois. Du maquillage, un collier, un sac et un livre - A Year In The Merde de Stephen Clarke. Comme j’adore
avoir dépenser l’argent d’anniversaire :3 j’ai hâte de le lire car j’ai entendu parler qu’il est fantastique. Je cherchais aussi un t-shirt francais mais je n’en ai trouvé qu’un, et c’était stupide, il disait ‘Le petite bouton farine’… et ça ne veut rien dire, ainsi que d’être grammaticalement incorrect -.- Ridicule ! Quelle dommage. Et c’est dommage aussi car il y aura des gens qui l’achèteront ! En tout cas, j’irai chez mes grands-parents pour les trois jours prochains et donc je ne pourrai pas poster puisqu’ils n’ont pas d’Internet. >< A plus alors, prenez soin de vous et je vous parlerai quand je rentrerai. x
i was just reading back through my blog, and i realised something. i realised that anyone reading it, trying to gain an idea of what i was like, would probably think i was the most depressed girl on the planet. page after page of sad/lonely typographies and photographs, with intermittent posts going, perhaps, into further detail about how lonely i feel, how upset i am. and to tell you the truth, everything i post here is true, it is indeed how i’m feeling, and i do think about it often.
but not all the time.
the truth is, i’m actually a happy person. i like to make the most of everything, i love to laugh, i love my friends, i love shopping and coffee and television and reading and chocolate and nice weather and all the other things which make people happy. i am not a depressed person. yes, there are things in my life i would like to change; yes, i am absolutely infatuated with someone who couldn’t give a shit about me, but in the end… i am happy. my friends are always here for me. always. they’re the most amazing people i’ve ever met, and i’m proud to call them my friends. i’m so lucky, i have parents who care about me, who want the best for me, and are always trying their hardest to make me happy, even if i don’t realise it. i love my school, i love my house, i love my garden.
i just wanted to post this because… i hate ungrateful people. and i truly feel that anyone reading this blog, would think that i was one of those ungrateful people. i have so much opportunity, i’m so lucky to be surrounded by people who love me, who care about me, and i think it’s a shame to dedicate this most of this blog to the small portion of my life that hurts, as opposed to the large portion which makes me happy every single day.
so, i woke up about half an hour ago. my whole family’s gone to London for 2 days except me and my older brother. which is pretty awesome, we’ve never been left for that long on our own. he’s currently making scrambled eggs for us, and i should go down and make some toast/coffee to go with it. and we’re gonna watch House.
life is good. and i’m gonna try to remind myself of that more often. thanks for reading :) xx