Think I’m officially nocturnal. I think something has to be done about it but maybe not tonight.
I had a pretty crap day, got more angry than I should’ve done and argued with nearly everyone. But… I just rekindled a friendship that I thought was lost forever. That’s gotta be worth a smile, right?
PS. For Bethy, who’s feeling down at the moment, and who I can’t comfort because my phone is credit-less… I love you, I love you I love you I love you. You’re beautiful, please never forget that, never forget how perfect you are. <3
And sometimes I wonder, can you feel my eyes on the back of your head? Can the hunger in my eyes penetrate your mind, your soul?
You turn around, your eyes meet mine. I throw a nervous smile your way, try not to look too desperate. You smile back, that beautiful, beautiful smile of yours. And here come the feelings I thought I’d forgotten, flooding back. Stronger each time, each time I think maybe they’d faded a little, I see your face just one more time and I remember. I remember everything. All the memories. What I think of all the time, that you probably don’t even remember. I let them wash over me. Both happy and sad. More happy than sad. So I still don’t know whether to laugh or cry tonight.
someone get me a medal or something?
so, avril lavigne’s released a new song, ‘smile’. she’s 26 now, but still partying hard like she was 10 years ago… gotta admire that enthusiasm and energy. but i did think her music would mature a little bit - “you know that i’m a crazy bitch, i do what i want when i feel like it” :P ah well. i’m starting my chemistry unit 3 revision now. wooh, a subject i actually like!
I wish you knew how much courage it took me to give that to you today. I want you to know that I meant every word… but so much was left unsaid. I hope it made you smile, because your smile is priceless. It’s just so beautiful. You’re so beautiful.
Why do I feel like I need you to live?